Pernahkah Anda membayangkan apa yang ada di dalam pikiran seseorang yang bunuh diri? apa yang mendorongnya? apa yang memperngaruhinya?apapula yang memantapkan niatnya? Rasanya, semua pertanyaan itu takkan pernah terjawab dengan tuntas. Pikiran-pikiran mengerikan seperti itu tampaknya hanya milik dirinya seorang, tidak untuk dibagi, apalagi untuk didiskusikan. Dan, jika pun pada akhirnya pikiran itu terkuak, maka hampir bisa dipastikan semuanya sudah terlambat. Sang pemikir sudah meninggalkan dunia ini, dengan menyisakan beberapa patah kata saja untuk direnungkan. Seperti catatan-catatan berikut.
And so I leave this world, where the heart must either break or turn to lead.
Suicide note.
~~ Nicolas-Sebastien Chamfort, French writer, d. 1794
Frances and Courtney, I’ll be at your altar. Please keep going Courtney, for Frances for her life will be so much happier without me. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU.
Suicide note.
~~ Kurt Cobain, musician, d. April 8, 1994
Goodbye, everybody!
Last words as he jumped off the cruise ship “Orizaba.” (His body was never found.)
~~ Hart Crane, poet, d. April 27, 1932
To my friends: My work is done. Why wait?
Suicide note.
~~ George Eastman, inventor, d. March 14, 1932
Lets see if this will do it.
Accidental suicide as he shot himself with a blank-loaded pistol on the set of TV spy show “Cover Up.” The concussion forced a chunk of his skull into his brain; he died six days later.
~~ Jon Erik Hexum, actor, d. October 18, 1984
All fled–all done, so lift me on the pyre;
The feast is over, and the lamps expire.
Suicide note.
~~ Robert E. Howard, writer, d. June 11, 1936
Don’t worry, it’s not loaded.
Suicide playing Russian roulette.
~~ Terry Kath, rock musician, d. January 23, 1978
They tried to get me – I got them first!
Suicide by drinking Lysol.
~~ Vachel Lindsay, poet, d. December 4, 1931
I must end it. There’s no hope left. I’ll be at peace. No one had anything to do with this. My decision totally.
Suicide note.
~~ Freddie Prinze, comedian, d. January 29, 1977
Dear World, I am leaving you because I am bored. I feel I have lived long enough. I am leaving you with your worries in this sweet cesspool – good luck.
Suicide note.
~~ George Sanders, British actor, d. April 25, 1972
When I am dead, and over me bright April
Shakes out her rain drenched hair,
Tho you should lean above me broken hearted,
I shall not care.
For I shall have peace.
As leafey trees are peaceful
When rain bends down the bough.
And I shall be more silent and cold hearted
Than you are now.
Suicide note to her lover who left her.
~~ Sara Teasdale, poet, d. 1933
To Harald, may God forgive you and forgive me too but I prefer to take my life away and our baby’s before I bring him with shame or killing him, Lupe.
Suicide note.
~~ Lupe Velez, actress, d. December 13, 1944
The future is just old age and illness and pain…. I must have peace and this is the only way.
Suicide note.
~~ James Whale, film director, d. May 29, 1957
I feel certain that I’m going mad again. I feel we can’t go thru another of those terrible times. And I shan’t recover this time. I begin to hear voices
Suicide note
~~ Virginia Woolf, author, d. March 28, 1941
sebenernya ide tulisan ini menarik banget lho bay. gue semangat gitu bacanya. kirain mau ngebahas soal si brain mapping itu.
digging digging digging
Bhuahahah… belum cukup waktu dan ilmu untuk ngebahas barin mapping. Musti konsultasi sama orang psikologi :p
Artikel ini menarik banget.
Banyak dari orang yang bunuh diri itu adalah writers (poet and author included).
Nggak ngerti juga apakah karena memang yang lo pasang disini sebagai contoh adalah suicide note mereka, atau memang pada dasarnya writers itu punya suicidal tendencies.
Or just simply karena mereka writers, jadi sampai di saat – saat terakhirpun pengen menulis sesuatu? =p
*okay, scratch that one*
Btw yes, the brain diagram with ‘undiagnosed mental illness’ caught me.
Is it contagious?
“…Nggak ngerti juga apakah karena memang yang lo pasang disini sebagai contoh adalah suicide note mereka, atau memang pada dasarnya writers itu punya suicidal tendencies.”
Gue mengakui bahwa terkadang memang ada ‘kerinduan’ terhadap ‘kematian’, meski bukan dengan cara membunuh diri. so, do you think that i am one of those kind? hahah
“Btw yes, the brain diagram with ‘undiagnosed mental illness’ caught me.
Is it contagious?”
I’m not sure whether it’s contagious or not… does anyone have the answer??
The penultimate suicide note would be David Foster Wallace’s This is Water. (Technically it’s not a suicide note, but I think it offers a rather fascinating insight about how people who eventually commit suicide see life. Hint: it’s not as bleak as we’d imagine.)
Related on what Ruri said (Hi Ruri ;p), I think people with artistic inclination tend to be ‘suicide-prone’ (this is definitely not a formal psychological term). Maybe because such people have elevated awareness about self and life.
Undiagnosed mental illness is not contagious yet transferable, just like bad taste of music :p
“I think people with artistic inclination tend to be ’suicide-prone’ (this is definitely not a formal psychological term). Maybe because such people have elevated awareness about self and life.”
Couldn’t agree more.
“Undiagnosed mental illness is not contagious yet transferable, just like bad taste of music :p”‘s
Very… very… nice.
Thank u for your interesting comment, Citra
Well it’s an interesting post to begin with
Anyway, I think this is worth mulling over:
“Suicide is the most sincere form of self-criticism.” – Robert Heinlein